Aku Ingin Pulang

Ayah,

aku ingin pulang...

Aku lelah... Tak tahan lagi

ku benci semua yang ada di sekelilingku

termasuk diriku

Kenapa?

Kenapa semua harus terjadi padaku?

Tak bisakah aku dapati kehidupan lain

Di mana aku tidak harus gagal dalam segala hal

Ayah,

aku tak tahan lagi...

Tak bisakah kau bawa aku pulang?

Ke pelukmu

Di mana tak ada lagi tangis

Tak ada lagi pedih

Aku tak tahan lagi

Tolong, bawa aku pulang

Ke tidur abadi, nyenyak tanpa mimpi

Tanpa ada lagi satu pun yang dapat membangungunkan ku kembali

Di mana aku dapat melepas semua - cinta, sahabat, hidup

Ayah,

Aku ingin pulang

February 16, 2007

Tirza Magdiel





I wrote this poem a year and a half ago. I was clearly very homesick and pretty drained, exactly how I'm feeling right now. I'll go into how I'm feeling later on. I should probably provide an understandable translation for this poem in a language you all understand. Disclaimer: since it's translated it won't be as pretty sounding as it would be in Indonesian, but at least you get the gist of it.

I Want to go Home

Daddy,

I want to go home...

I'm tired... I can't stand it anymore

I hate everything that's around me

including myself

Why?

Why are all these things happening to me?

Can't I have another life

Where I don't have to fail at everything

Daddy,

I can't stand this anymore...

Can't you just bring me home?

To your embrace

Where tears no longer exist

Where there's no pain

I can't stand it anymore

Please, take me home

To the eternal slumber, peaceful without dreams

Where no one could wake me

Where I can let go of everything - love, friendship, life

Daddy,

I want to go home