Ayah,
aku ingin pulang...
Aku lelah... Tak tahan lagi
ku benci semua yang ada di sekelilingku
termasuk diriku
Kenapa?
Kenapa semua harus terjadi padaku?
Tak bisakah aku dapati kehidupan lain
Di mana aku tidak harus gagal dalam segala hal
Ayah,
aku tak tahan lagi...
Tak bisakah kau bawa aku pulang?
Ke pelukmu
Di mana tak ada lagi tangis
Tak ada lagi pedih
Aku tak tahan lagi
Tolong, bawa aku pulang
Ke tidur abadi, nyenyak tanpa mimpi
Tanpa ada lagi satu pun yang dapat membangungunkan ku kembali
Di mana aku dapat melepas semua - cinta, sahabat, hidup
Ayah,
Aku ingin pulang
February 16, 2007
Tirza Magdiel
I wrote this poem a year and a half ago. I was clearly very homesick and pretty drained, exactly how I'm feeling right now. I'll go into how I'm feeling later on. I should probably provide an understandable translation for this poem in a language you all understand. Disclaimer: since it's translated it won't be as pretty sounding as it would be in Indonesian, but at least you get the gist of it.
I Want to go Home
Daddy,
I want to go home...
I'm tired... I can't stand it anymore
I hate everything that's around me
including myself
Why?
Why are all these things happening to me?
Can't I have another life
Where I don't have to fail at everything
Daddy,
I can't stand this anymore...
Can't you just bring me home?
To your embrace
Where tears no longer exist
Where there's no pain
I can't stand it anymore
Please, take me home
To the eternal slumber, peaceful without dreams
Where no one could wake me
Where I can let go of everything - love, friendship, life
Daddy,
I want to go home
